[[Sorry if this seems like an essay... it's the way my mind works when I'm actually being intelligent speaking and poetic]]Though many usually see me as a little kitty, ignorant and slightly... I dunno, Uneducated.
But I've been talking with an overseas fur for the last hour, and it seems we have quite the same though patterns.
Most people reading this'll think, "God, the world doesn't revolve around you, bitch" but well... It's just the way my mind thinks of things.
Recently... Well, over the last two years, I've been passively thinking about myself, my purpose, my existence. My friend, Zared, somewhat agrees with me on this, so don't think it's just me that's thinking it. I've thought, that maybe, the world, the way everything is moving, evolving, transforming from one thing to another, is part of a story that someone, me possibly, has written while dead or not born yet, and it's being played out now like a movie. Everyone gets deja vu, so maybe, the deja vu is one remembering parts of the story that has been written, that they are currently going through.
Another thought, some people might see me as a Wiccan for saying this, but I'm not... I feel like every movement has a rippling effect on the rest of the world. I thought this when I was younger. I thought of doing one thing, like moving my arm from left to right, then would do the opposite. Somehow, I believe this changes the world in a way. Like the air that you have pushed in the different direction, has changed someone else's mind or thoughts, and it changes the outcome of something. Saying this, I don't mean that it changes the outcome of everything. I believe there is a final destination for everything, yet we are able, not always the person, but our surroundings, can change the path or the way the destination will be found.
Another thing we've been discussing is metaphors... I use a lot of metaphors in my mind, and in my msn name from songs. It lets my mind wander about things, and gives many possible relations to the first said metaphor. For instance, my msn name right now has a quote from a song, "Your soul's on fire", which, for me, refers to the soul of someone, going through some sort of pain, accomplishment or even an indescribable change.
Yet another subject we were discussing, that Zared even said he thinks he loves me for being so alike with him... We believe in fate, somewhat. Like... I dunno how to explain it properly. But, for me, I believe surgery is probably the worst thing ever invented [this was coming off a conversation about antidepressants...I'll say that part later]. We were born to be this way, and why should we change what we were made to be? People go for plastic surgery to change themselves, when it's natural to change, and it's just... I dunno, inhumane to change who you are meant to be. We both have had experiences with antidepressants, and I'm still on them. We both believe that we shouldn't take them, as we're taking drugs to effect who we were made to be, but I think it's safer for me to take them. >.>
We both like stressing people's shatterpoints... Though I prefer not to, because sometimes stressing them, can push them over the edge of their limits and well... shatter. By shatterpoint I mean... Well, I'll refer to Chobits with this one. When Freya is involved in the world, all persocoms around the place semi-shutdown, like they're just a shell. This is what I mean by shatterpoint... The point where the brain is still there, but the soul or the mind is gone. The body is just a shell.
Well... There's some of my mind complex. Probably not put into the best words that I can for everyone else to understand, but it makes sense to me, hopefully. D:
If anyone wants to comment, agreeing or objecting, or just plain commenting, feel free.
I want to hear about other people's thoughts on these things.
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